tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-51966879331551734492024-03-08T05:57:36.856-05:00Fat to FabulousBlogging away about my daily struggles....whether it be food or life in general.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.comBlogger39125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-57378420210741432732012-10-10T20:46:00.000-04:002012-10-10T20:46:53.690-04:00Ugh.....It's a short one tonight. I am super foul today....not quite sure what my issue is. I think I am just done. I have been searching for a new job on an off for months. I can't seem to find anything worth sending my resume in for or the ones that I think I would love I dont have enough education for. I am not opposed to going back to school, but as of right now I dont have the money or the time. And on top of that even if I do go back, the jobs that I think I would love I dont think would pay enough. So I am just UGH....<br />
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I would honestly love to have my own store. Country Crafts and Consignments....I have thought about it so much I already have a name. I love the idea of refinishing furniture. Making the old new, repurposing items. The couple pieces that I have done came out really well.<br />
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So long story short if you hear of any fabulous job openings keep me in mind and if you have anything you want refinished again keep me in mind.<br />
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Anyways, the end of last week was crazy freakin' busy. Thursday night we went to the circus with my mom and Dustin's mom and Emma. Emma loved it. She was so entranced by everything that was happening. By the end of the night she was dancing and clapping in our laps. She also now thinks that every circus animal says ROAR, not just the tigers. Its cute to see her stick her hand up like paw and roar, but we are working on the right animal sounds for the right animal.<br />
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Friday night was a lot of running around on my part to get ready for her second birthday party the next day. ::sniff, sniff:: We got her a beta fish that we named Bob for her bedroom. She LOVES him. Every morning she wakes up and says Bob....meaning time to feed him breakfast. <br />
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Saturday was great, tons of family and friends came over to help us celebrate her birthday. She got lots of great gifts. I was happy that some were able to stay later and BBQ with us. It is always great to catch up. I feel like we don't see each other enough.<br />
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Sunday I was seriously hungover. One of my old besties decided to stay and we finished a huge bottle of wine, not to mention the glasses that we had from the first bottle that others helped us polish off. Anyways, I didn't want to move on Sunday but the house needed to be picked up. It wasn't in bad shape, thank god.....ended up taking a nap when Emma went down and then we headed to the fair for a bit.<br />
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So what this amounts to is Thursday through Sunday, I did not make good food choices. I did make a point to not overeat, but I did splurge and have some not so good things. But I got right back on track Monday morning. Last night we had baked chicken that was stuffed with spinach, tomatoes and mozzarella along with some left over pasta salad from the bday party and some steamed broccoli. The chicken was delicious and is going to be a good go to meal for us. Tonight we had left over vegan chili and a baked potato both with 75% fat free cheddar cheese. Which was also very good.<br />
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That's all I have to report for now....I am still down overall and that is great news in my world. Now just to keep up the work.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-53173498816026157282012-09-25T17:53:00.001-04:002012-09-25T17:53:40.959-04:00Hey, look at me....back again today. Whoop, Whoop. <br />
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Not much going on today except stress. I have way too much stuff going on in the next couple of months. And nothing I can get out of. Its just all coming to a head....and I feel like my head is spinning and spinning. <br />
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Emma's Birthday party is this weekend and I am super excited about it. I can't believe that she is going to be two already. The time really does fly by. She is like a little person now, with attitude and all. She makes me nuts most days, but I love her for it. I mean how can you not love a face that stinkin' cute.<br />
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We ate dinner at the in-laws last night, so the diet went completely out the window and the scale definitely showed it this morning. I was not a happy camper, but I was fully expecting it. Dustin and I both agreed that we feel so much better with the way we have been eating this last week. That we both want to keep it up. And when we do eat something not so great, its almost an instantaneous yucky feeling. So we are on the band wagon to keep this going which is great.<br />
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So I get home and realize I forgot to take out something for dinner...all our meat is frozen. SHIAT! We will be ordering tonight, steak salads for both Dustin and I and Emma will get a chicken kids meal.<br />
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My brain doesn't want to work anymore so that's all for now.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-38929812878668532762012-09-24T14:28:00.000-04:002012-09-24T14:28:12.887-04:00So much to catch up on.I feel like my life has been full of drama lately. There has been so much shit going on. I think it has finally come to end. And truthfully I don't even know what the end is or if there is really a defining point.....I have more or less decided that I am not dealing with the high school bull shit and if you don't fucking like it then don't talk to me. That simple.<br />
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I am not going to get into all the dramatics. The people in my life who care know about what I am talking about and to be perfectly honest, I don't really want to talk about it anymore. I'm kinda over it.<br />
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Which brings me to me sitting at work with a slight headache ( I am thinking from slight dehydration) and being bored.....our Agency Management System is down and no one knows when it may be back up. So this morning I did what I could without the system. That was a two whole whopping phone calls. FML. So now I sit here bored at my desk after hours of googling and window Internet shopping. BORED. There is only so much googling you can do before you go cross eyed.<br />
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Back to the whole reason I started this blog and so far have failed miserably at. Eating and being fat. I am really good at both. But I have decided to make dietary changes. I cut ALL caffeine out of my diet last Saturday. I only had a raging headache for about 3 days. I was super grateful it wasn't any longer. I have also not had any processed food in the last week. I am not being extremely finicky about the food, but from what I read they say try to eat things with less than 5 ingredients or things that you wouldn't be able to make yourself at home. So far so good. <br />
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Honestly I feel much better. I don't have a constant bloated feeling. Dustin has surprised me in going along with this whole non processed food journey. Which is great, because then I don't have to worry about him and he can just eat what I plan for. Everything I have made has been super tasty. I even made sure to buy fresh herbs to season with. So far so good. Dustin says he feels better. I don't know if he has lost any weight, but I am down 3.6 pounds from last week. So I am hoping to keep it up.<br />
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We had a super busy weekend. Sunday was filled with family and friends. The morning started with visiting one of the newest additions to the Stevens/Fifield side of the family. Little Miss Olivia Grace. She is absolutely gorgeous, as to be expected. Then we were off to a BBQ. Emma had a fabulous time. There was a hay ride and she got to pick to pumpkins after out of the garden. She was so cute running from pumpkin to pumpkin trying to find just the right ones. Then to meet an old friend for some apple picking. It was great catching up with her and hopefully we can get some more time in together before she heads back to Georgia in December/January....<br />
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Well I think that's it for now. Maybe I will get back into this maybe not, lol. But I don't have anything else to do right now......BORED!!!Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-34346327818074108122012-01-05T19:59:00.000-05:002012-01-05T19:59:57.677-05:00Full, Full, Full......I got up an half an hour earlier than normal today, so I was able to make breakfast at home. I had egg beaters with a piece of bacon in a multi grain 100 calorie wrap......it was rather bland. I washed it down with half a glass of left over smoothie from the two previous days. I was still feeling kind of hungry but decided to hold off until getting to work to if I still was at which point I would have a snack.<br />
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I wasn't still hungry by the time I got to work, I was actually really full.....and full pretty much throughout the day. I had grapes around 11:30 and another All Natural Cafe Steamer which was Portabella Mozzarella Pasta. It was super yummy.<br />
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Around 2 I had 15 kashi crackers with another laughing cow cheese and a granny smith apple. I did have another snack around 3:30, which was mixed nuts (not a healthy kind) and a clementine.<br />
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Dustin cooked dinner tonight (FABULOUS - I wasn't rushing all around when I got home) he cooked the fish I purchased which was Potato Crusted Chipolte Cod. It was so yummy, he also made butter garlic noodles. And I paired it with a salad.<br />
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I just want to add in here, for people who read this, but don't really, really know me or us. (not that it matters just to save me from future explanation). All the meat we eat excluding chicken and fish is fresh. Meaning it came off of Dustin's grandparents farm or another friend's local farm.<br />
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And in addition.....it is 8pm, I am exhausted and going to bed early.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-39585441563352232972012-01-04T20:40:00.000-05:002012-01-04T20:40:54.411-05:00Here we GOOOOOOOOOOSo I am going to try to this again and see how it goes. The holidays have come and gone and the weight has just come......now to work on it going. I am not making it my New Year's Resolution to lose weight. Because I feel like everyone does that and I don't want to set myself up for failure. My NYR is to get up at a more appropriate time on a daily basis (meaning not having to run around like a crazy woman in the morning) and with that hopefully eventually being able to add working out in the morning to that.<br />
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I restarted this journey yesterday....unfortunately I have put back on all the weight that I had previously lost. I new it was happening and I still couldn't stop myself from eating. Which really disgusts me. But I am already down two pounds or I was this morning I should say.<br />
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My last grocery shopping trip, last Sunday, was actually really good. Everything that I bought was healthy and so far has been yummy.<br />
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This morning was the real first day (again) in the change of my diet. Breakfast was coffee we fat free FV creamer and 3 splenda, along with a fruit smoothie made with fat free vanilla yogurt, water and frozen strawberries, mangos and peaches.<br />
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1st snack was kashi fire roasted veggie crackers with a light mozzarella sun dried tomato basil laughing cow cheese and a medium size granny smith apple. The crackers and cheese were AWESOME!!!!!<br />
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Lunch I had an all natural cafe steamer, Asian pot stickers and a banana and water.<br />
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2nd snack was two chocolate chunk back to nature's cookies and they didn't taste like cardboard which surprised me and a clementine.<br />
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Dinner was also delicious!!!!<br />
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</div><div class="separator" style="border-bottom: medium none; border-left: medium none; border-right: medium none; border-top: medium none; clear: both; text-align: left;">'til tomorrow</div>Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-80558501941319517342011-10-13T13:13:00.000-04:002011-10-13T13:13:59.854-04:00I'm Back???Some people have mentioned that they would like me to be blogging again. That they miss my brutal honesty and that some of you actually enjoy it....why I am not really sure and will probably never figure it out, but what the hell. So here it goes again, be prepared this one is going to be a doozie!<br />
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I have been thinking a lot about my past lately and why I am the way that I am today. Before I get into this I would like to precursor this by saying I am not looking for anything out of this post. I have decided that I am going to put everything out there, just to give people a heads up of my past and why I think the way I am the way I am. This post is going to be kind of a mishmash of a little bit of everything. It is just all this shit that is constantly running through my brain and I need an outlet. I have debated about doing this on here for awhile, but honestly I didn't know if I wanted to open this up for the world to see and leave myself this vulnerable. But I am going to do it and leave it at that.<br />
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I have always been very up front with people about my attitude, about who I am and everything else in between. I started this blog because of my weight and my struggle with it in my every day life. I have struggled with my weight since I was little and I remember it very clearly. I distinctly remember looking at myself and never thinking I was skinny. Even when I was at my skinniest (a size 8 or 9 when I was 20 or so) I thought I was fat!!! Now I would kill to get back to that size. I realize today that getting back to that size for me is really not realistic. Don't get me wrong I was never told that I was fat (that I can remember) by anyone...not anyone that matters to me anyway. But it has been a constant struggle from looking at pictures in magazines and thinking that the way they looked was the way that I should look to looking at my classmates and thinking and knowing that they were thinner than I was and that I should be able to be that skinny. It has always been a constant struggle and I deal with it day in and day out. <br />
I don't wear it on my shoulder for everyone to see and I have this facade of having a wall up and that it doesn't bother me the way people look at me and judge. But it does.<br />
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I have never perceived myself as a skinny or pretty person. I can honestly say that the only day of my life I have ever felt truly beautiful was the day of my wedding. Everyday I have gotten up and done my morning routine whether it be in high school or now....you shower, do your hair and makeup and get on with the day. There are days when I have gone to school/work and thought that I have looked at alright and then you have one of those moments where you look in the mirror and you have a what the fuck was I thinking thought....that happens more often than not and it has gotten so much worse since having Emma, because I am exhausted all of the time and no amount of makeup can hide that exhausted look on your face. Not in my case anyway!<br />
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Moving on......I told you this was going to be a mishmash....sorry, you can stop reading now if you want, but it is going to continue. I am going to back track a little here and talk about middle school and high school and my friendships there. I feel like I have this curse that follows me around in my friendships. I have never had an abundant amount of friends. I have always had a couple of friends that I have always held near and dear to my heart. To this day this holds true. I can remember in middle school being very close with a couple of different people. I am not going to name names or call anyone out...this is not for that purpose at all. I was friends with them each individually we eventually started hanging out all together and I was then cut from the clique. If that is what you want to call it. I realize to a degree that this is all middle school bull shit and kids being kids, but I don't think people realize the things they do and how long people carry it with them. I remember having classes with these two girls and I remember distinctly the day that it happened and when I realized what was going on....they had talked to the other people "sitting" by them and had them move seats so there would not be a seat close to them and I would have to move to the other side of the room. Obviously I didn't realize this was going on right away, but within a couple of days, someone actually told me that they had asked them to sit by them so I couldn't. Ouch. To some extent this happened again in high school with two different girls, I was again close with these two on an individual basis and we all started hanging out and I was again "removed" from the clique. It wasnt as drastic or mean spirited as is it had been in middle school, but it still hurt. I think this is where my "rough" exterior and my "walls" started to form. From here on out I was pretty much a bitch, douche bag, call it what you want. I was it. Because I was determine to not let myself get hurt, yet again.<br />
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I am not going to get into my relationships with boyfriends because those are far worse then any friendships that I have had to deal with. And as many walls as I put up they were able to take them down and beat me down a little more. So now my walls stand taller and stronger, but in the end I am a better person for it.<br />
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I have two very close friends who mean the absolute world to me and I would be completely lost without them and they are my true friends and my soul sisters. I would do anything for them as they would for me. I love them and they have helped to mold me into the person I am today. And I am a better person for having them in my life. You guys know who you are.<br />
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If by chance anyone reads this that thinks, they are one of "those" girls. We are speaking now and I don't want to get into it with you to any degree or on any level. It is what it is......I just needed to let it out.<br />
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Sorry about all the mishmashy shit......this was kind of like a completely random diary entry.....sorry for that.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-52619812783550885202011-09-13T19:20:00.000-04:002011-09-13T19:20:53.858-04:00I was down 1.8 this morning....which I am sure is mostly water weight, but I will take it. I am hoping that I will be able to get the rest off with in the next two days..or so.<br />
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Breakfast this morning was a Yoplait Light FF Strawberry Banana Yogurt. For snack I had a 100 cal Fruit Crisp and a Light String Cheese. Can I just say I forgot how much I freaking love string cheese. Who ever invented is a flippin' genius.<br />
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Lunch was left overs from last night, sauteed peppers, onions, mushrooms and grilled steak. It was probably a total of two cups, being mostly vegetables. Snack I had 100 cal snack pack of cookies and later I had a Nature Valley Chewy Fruit and Nut Granola bar.<br />
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Zumba kicked my ass tonight!!!!<br />
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Dinner was a cheese burger (which I was told by my RD is a serving size) and I also had a measured out serving of pasta salad which was loaded with veggies.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-1771363686653695272011-09-12T19:55:00.000-04:002011-09-12T19:55:03.020-04:00Here I Go AGAIN!!!I was on vacation last week. The first couple of days I had no real Internet access....so blogging was not an option. I went into vacation planning on being really good. Well that didn't happen at all. Like NOT at all. I don't know if I mentioned it before but my old scale was not reading properly so Dustin was nice enough to pick me up a new one in Concord for me one day. He got one that only reads weight, which is fine, but it doesn't remember from day to day....which I didn't think was going to be a big deal, but apparently I can't remember SHIT!!!<br />
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So I have to go back through my posts and see where I stand, but I am pretty sure I am up like 3.5lbs. Which doesn't really surprise me at all, but I am disappointed in myself.<br />
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So I got back on the band wagon today. Breakfast a Yoplait Light (FF) Strawberry yogurt. It was actually super yummy, but took me forever to eat because I dove right into work when I got there and I had a lot of emails and shit to go through and get organized...<br />
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By lunch I was starving so around 12:15 I made my cafe steamer. Today it was the portabella mushroom marsala....delish. 1:30 I was still hungry so I had a 100 cal snack pack of cookies. 2:30 still hungry so I had a small granny smith apple and a 100 cal snack pack of cocoa roasted almonds....again 3:30 still hungry so I had a 100 cal fruit crisp bar.<br />
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Curves kicked my ass tonight....that's what I get for taking a week off. But I am glad that I can feel it because I can totally feel the weight that I put back on and I feel disgusting.......<br />
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When I got home Dustin and Emma were playing in the front yard, so I hung out with them for a couple of minutes and then we went in. Dustin was nice enough to start dinner, while I gave Miss Em a bath. He defrosted some fresh steaks and when Em was done with her tubby, I cut up some bell peppers, mushrooms and onions which I sauteed. Dustin grilled the steak and we through everything on top of a salad....dinner was yummy! I know I am going to be hungry in a little bit and I haven't figured out what I am going to do for a snack yet.<br />
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On another note, I saw this <a href="http://www.brita.com/products/filtering-bottle/brita-bottle/?gclid=CPecxbbzmKsCFZGO5godkHxBWg">Brita Water Bottle</a> in Walmart and saw a commercial for it and I am wondering if anyone has one or if they have heard anything about it. The water at my office sucks, I think having something that would make the water taste less like shit, might actually help me to drink more......rather than having to buy bottled all the time.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-76387371716132971212011-09-01T19:44:00.000-04:002011-09-01T19:44:44.908-04:00I was down .2 this morning, which brings my total to six.<br />
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This is going to be a short blog tonight...<br />
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Breakfast was blueberry greek yogurt with 1.5 handfuls of kashi berry cereal.....it made it a little more palatable and I got 3/4 of it down. Snack was 2 cups of watermelon. Lunch was another grilled chicken salad, today I did opt for the house dressing, which was pretty much oil. I did have an afternoon snack which was 100 cal fruit crisp snack and 100 cocoa roasted almonds snack pack. Dinner is mozzarella pesto tomato pizza.<br />
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Tonight was Zumba at Curves, it was a different teacher and less intense, not as good of a work out as the other night. But still fun!Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-26288863153021726992011-08-31T19:31:00.000-04:002011-08-31T19:31:47.117-04:00Down .6 again this morning, for a total of 5.8 lbs. This seems to be a stalling point for me. Hopefully I will be able to get past this and tomorrow morning I will be down and can continue to move forward.<br />
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Breakfast was two whole wheat waffles with peanut butter and banana slices. This is by far my favorite breakfast since starting this diet adventure. I had a bag of cocoa roasted almonds around 11 on my way back to the house, because we were so slow at work today I was going home to get Em's birthday invitations and my coupons.....so invitations have been made out and my coupons are organized.<br />
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I did a shitty job of grocery shopping last Saturday because I was in such a hurry and had to get home for the sex toy party I was hosting. I got all the stuff on my list, but apparently my list didn't include any lunch items......so I was pretty shit of luck this week and finishing up things in the fridge. So today I was out of food and had no lunch. I ordered out, large garden salad topped with chicken. They have no low fat dressing and their house dressing is basically oil.....so I got Caesar, I know not the best choice, but it is what I had. I will admit I ate entirely too much chicken and the bread that came with it. Hopefully I wont regret that in the morning.<br />
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There was no afternoon snack because I was so full from lunch. Dinner was left over Chinese food - (maybe) a cup of beef and broccoli, a chicken finger and two crab rangoons.....with a glass of cranberry grape juice.......I think I may be getting a UTI. FML.<br />
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My knees have been killing me all day and my back has been wicked tight. But I went to Curves anyway and had a pretty good workout. That is three days in a row and I will go tomorrow as well, Friday is a no go as I am having people over for dinner for a mini old high school group get together.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-33843569988953845132011-08-30T20:18:00.000-04:002011-08-30T20:18:41.536-04:00Down .6 this morning!!! Yay for heading in the right direction again.<br />
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Breakfast is a Yoplait Blueberry Greek yogurt, which I am gagging down again this morning and my Keurig Ice tea. I only got half of it down before I tossed it around 11 o'clock. Because it took me so long to eat half the yogurt I obviously did not have a morning snack. Lunch was a chicken sandwich the same as yesterday with 100 cal snack pack of cookies. My afternoon snack was a 90 calorie cheese stick which was scrumptious and 100 calorie fruit crisp.<br />
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Dinner was a cheeseburger with 50% fat free cheddar and no bun. Covered in fresh tomatoes and homemade dill pickles thanks to Mallory and Luke, I also had a side of cucumbers and tomatoes with yogurt ranch dressing.<br />
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Curves kicked butt tonight. I did one time around about 15 mins before Zumba started and we Zumba'd for 30 mins. I have come to the conclusion that I am completely uncoordinated and Zumba seriously kicked my ass.<br />
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I could talk some more, but I want to start making Em's tutu for her birthday party...so I am out.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-10101644067874220412011-08-29T19:42:00.000-04:002011-08-29T19:42:35.360-04:00Back to the grindI have been absent from my blogging. Last week was so busy and this week and the month of September aren't any better to be perfectly honest. I am going to try to blog and keep everything updated. I have decided that I am going to "change" the way that I blog. I am going to try to write after each meal. It will still be contained to one post and only posted once, but I think if I take a quick 5 minutes during or after each meal, I will be able to stay on top of it and at least get something out there for the day. So if my blogging sounds funny, like each meal that I am eating is currently happening, it probably is....does that make sense? It makes sense in my brain - so deal.<br />
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This morning I was running late as usual for a Monday. I was up a pound this morning maybe a pound and a half. I honestly couldn't remember what I weighed on Friday. But honestly I ate like shit all weekend so I am completely not surprised and glad that it is not more than that.<br />
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So back on the band wagon today. Breakfast was a Strawberry Yoplait Greek Yogurt which I gagged down this morning and a DD medium ice coffee with skim and splenda. I bought the Greek Yogurt on recommendation and because it was on sale and I had coupons. I don't know how I am going to eat the three left that I have in the fridge....they were fucking gross!!!!<br />
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I didn't have a snack this morning because it took me so long to get the yogurt down. Lunch was a chicken sandwich on an Arnold's flat bread with mayonnaise and mustard along with a 100 calorie snack pack of Cheezits. <br />
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I also went to Wally World at lunch and got some new clothes to work out in for Curves. 2 pairs of capris, 2 pairs of full length pants, 5 light weight tees and 3 light weight long sleeve tees oh and three new sports bras.....so now I can be fashionable while working out. YAY me and tonight will be my second night at Curves, I would have gone over the weekend but they don't have enough members that go on the weekend so they don't open on weekends anymore. But if I go like I say I am going to go, 5 nights a week, then I don't have a problem with taking the weekend off. And if anyone tells me to take a nice long walk on the weekend to make up for it the next time I see you I will punch you in the fucking face. The way I see it is I have made a drastic change to my diet and I have gone from being pretty much 100% sedentary to looking forward to working out a minimum of 3 nights a week with the hopes of getting in 5, so don't push me. I am pushing myself as it is. I am already irritated that I will be seeing Emma an hour less every night. I know some of you are saying whoopie, no big deal, but I actually enjoy spending time with my daughter and taking her places with me so again fuck off. That is the end of my rant for now.<br />
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My afternoon snack was 100 calorie fruit crisps and a cheese stick.<br />
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Curves was great tonight. I pushed myself and could feel it in 90% of the machines I used. A "full" workout is going around twice. Which is what I did and eventually I would like to get up to 3-4 times around, but that will come in time.<br />
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Dinner tonight is split chicken breast with Mesquite Chicken seasoning, salad and Dustin and I are splitting a baked potato....I can't wait for dinner, which is currently cooking on the grill!Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-43796680207897672982011-08-25T19:38:00.000-04:002011-08-25T19:38:00.247-04:00Its been a couple of days.....I haven't fallen of the band wagon, but the last couple of days have been rough. The days have gone well, but the nights/dinners have been difficult. I need to go grocery shopping and get myself re-established.<br />
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On the plus side I joined Curves tonight, but I was not able to work out. Tonight was one of the Zumba nights and by the time I was finished with the paperwork and measurements and everything else...there was only about 10 minutes left of Zumba, which I was not going to pay extra for. So I asked if they get the room back together in time for me to be able to get a work out in before closing. To which they responded they need about 45 minutes to walk me through everything the first time. Which I don't really need, but its what she said, so I have to stick with it.<br />
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So my first work out will be tomorrow night....I will be running late for girls night. We are having dinner at Applebee's, but I already have my dinner picked out after looking at the nutritional information on the website. I am going to go with one of the 550 calorie meals. Either the steak with asiago or the chicken with stuffed portabellas. Both sound super yummy.<br />
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I don't really know what my weight is at the moment....my scale has been broken. It is still reading weight it is just way inaccurate. I would get on one morning and be down like 5 pounds, so I would weigh myself again and it would be different and different and different. I bought a new scale today, so I am hoping that it hasn't been way off for some time.<br />
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Emma is sick, for the first time. She has a cold and is absolutely miserable. I feel so bad for her, she is so stuffy and the baby saline is not working well.<br />
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I am getting back on the blogging band wagon. Promise!!! For those of you that care, lol.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-74490624406910145462011-08-22T19:46:00.000-04:002011-08-22T19:46:40.187-04:00I had so much to say earlier.....was going to vent/rant a little. But I am just going to let it go.<br />
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I was up .8 from the weekend, which I fully expected and I am super happy that it wasn't more. I don't remember if I blogged on Friday or what I ate during the day. Dinner was a baked chicken something or other, with potatoes and a roll. In the car on the way down I had a 100 calorie snack pack of Cheezits and a Twix Ice Cream bar.<br />
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Saturday was not good, not good at all. Breakfast was fruit and a toasted bagel thin with light butter. Lunch was a hamburger, some chips and some pasta salad. There was tons of junk at the party and I pretty much picked all day. There was no dinner, I was full and felt disgusting. the night ended with a Mojito.<br />
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Sunday was not really any better the morning started off with Dutch waffles, which are super fucking yummy and I don't think there is anything remotely nutritional about them. We got on the road to go home shortly after breakfast and had lunch on the road which was cheese pizza and french fries. Emma had her first taste of cheese pizza and loved it. Dinner ended with pizza as well, I was too tired to cook anything and so was Dustin. It was thin crust onion and garlic and chicken.......so good.<br />
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So like I said, I wasn't surprised that the scale was up this morning but happy that it wasn't a lot. On another note, I don't know what the problem is when I travel. But I literally did not shit all weekend long, which I don't really understand. I don't have issues with going to the bathroom in public places, so why I cant go while traveling is beyond me.....and extremely uncomfortable. I literally went after like 10 mins of walking through the door.<br />
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I wasn't overly prepared for this week. I haven't gone grocery shopping and am going off of what is left in the fridge. So this morning was blueberry yocrunch yogurt. Lunch was a portabella marsala cafe steamer. I also snacked on fresh cherries that Jan brought in today. I also had 2 100 calorie snack pack of cookies through out the day. Dinner was a haddock fillet, with corn on the cob (fresh from Jan's garden) and salad. All super yummy.<br />
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I am pretty confident that I will be back down tomorrow if not all .8, pretty close to it.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-24972572353728045522011-08-18T20:21:00.000-04:002011-08-18T20:21:48.469-04:00quick post again tonight. I was down .2 this morning. Not a lot but enough to count. Bringing the total to 5.8 pounds.<br />
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Breakfast was 1 cup of berry kashi cereal and 3/4 cup of 1% milk along with a V8 Fruit Fusion. I did eat breakfast at home this morning and I still wasn't too hungry for a snack around 10:30, but I had one anyway. It was a 100 calorie fruit crisp.<br />
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Lunch was a Lemon Chicken cafe steamer that had green beans and cherry tomatoes with pasta. YUMMY! I had a green apple about an hour earlier.<br />
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Dinner was going to be late. So I had a couple of wheat thins with some red pepper hummus. Dinner was a beef roast with a baked potato and peppers and onions.<br />
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I have a feeling that I am not going to be down tomorrow. I wasn't really hungry all day....so I guess we will see.<br />
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Posts might be off this weekend, because I am leaving for NJ/NY tomorrow after work. I am going to try to remember my lap top. Here's to hoping!Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-73833212824173332062011-08-17T20:25:00.000-04:002011-08-17T20:25:59.919-04:00ok, I am going to be a loser and just do a quick blog. Because I literally just walked through the door and my husband looks super irritated that I am on the computer. I was down .6 this morning, but I think it is actually 1.6 from yesterday for a total of 5.6. WOOOOHOOOO<br />
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Breakfast was a yocrunch blueberry yogurt and a fruit fusion. I have been trying to eat breakfast at home vs at work...it almost an hour earlier and snack time is more appropriate. I had a snack around 10:30 a 100 cal fruit crisp.<br />
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Lunch was a balsamic chicken cafe steamer that was super yummy and green apple. I was still a little hungry but held off for a little while. I ended up eating a cheese stick and 100 cal snack pack of cookies.<br />
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Dinner was going to be late bc I had a hair appt right after work, so I had a 100 snack pack of cocoa toasted almonds on the way. And dinner was left over spaghetti again. I didnt measure tonight, it was definately more than a cup but not as much as I would have liked to eat.<br />
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That is all!Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-12883157529812528862011-08-16T18:59:00.000-04:002011-08-16T18:59:01.267-04:00Today didn't start off too hot. First I am completely tired and bitchy, then I weigh myself and I am up a pound. All I want to do is punch some thing or someone. I ate awesome yesterday besides the extra helping of spaghetti. So needless to say I was seriously bent out of shape today.<br />
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But I decided I was going to stick to my guns and try it again today. So this morning I started off with two whole wheat Eggo waffles with 2tbsp of peanut butter and 1/2 a banana....made sandwich style. It was actually pretty good. I was nervous about this concoction that Katy recommended, but it was good and will totally have it again.<br />
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I cut down on the snacks today, because yesterday I felt way too full pretty much all day long. I was hungry around 10:30 or so. So I had 15 wheat thins with red pepper hummus. Lunch was around 12:30 - 1 and was a chicken sandwich on a whole wheat Arnold's round with mayo and mustard. With cucumber slices on the side. I did get hungry later in the afternoon so I had a 100 calorie snack pack of cookies and a green apple about an hour later.<br />
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Dinner was left over spaghetti, one cup and a half cup of sauce. I am still a hungry and will probably have a snack in a little bit....either a green apple with peanut butter or a frozen fudge bar (90 calories). But I don't know yet and will probably lean towards the apple.<br />
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Hopefully tomorrow will go better.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-37621358295053822772011-08-15T19:15:00.000-04:002011-08-15T19:15:10.668-04:00Where is my cheering section?????? I want to HEAR you!!!!! LOL<br />
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Moving on, I was down .6 this morning. Bringing me back to right where I was before my Friday night failure. Katy has me eating a ton of food and I was super full all day almost to the point of being uncomfortable.<br />
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Breakfast started with 1cup of Berry Kashi Cereal with 3/4 cup of 1% milk and half a banana. Miss Em had the other half. Normally I am hungry for a snack around 10:30....well 10:30 rolled around and hunger was no where in sight, but I had snack anyways. An extra sharp cheddar cheese stick (90 cals) and a 100 calorie snack pack of cheezits.<br />
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Again, by lunch time I am ready to eat. Lunch time came and went and I wasn't hungry, so I finally ate at 1. Today was a pumpkin ravioli with summer squash and asparagus (Cafe Steamer 310 cals) and 1cup of watermelon. On a normal day I would be hungry again around 2:30 or so, granted I ate later in the afternoon, but by 3:30 I was still not ready for a snack, but I had one anyway. Cocoa Roasted Almonds, freakin' delicious.<br />
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I was nervous about dinner, because I wasn't really hungry all day long. But I had decided on this rainy day that I was going to make spaghetti. So I came home and started prepping the sauce. Fresh hamburger, onion, bell peppers and mushrooms along with Prego and of course garlic. I did buy wheat pasta when I went grocery shopping, but I wanted to use what was left in the house first. So I cooked the regular pasta. Dinner was a small salad with the yogurt ranch dressing 1.5cups of pasta with 1cup of sauce.<br />
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I am feeling pretty full and probably could have gone with just a cup of past and less sauce, but I love pasta and it was soooooo good. Here is to hoping the scale is down again tomorrow.<br />
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Miss Katy, I want to hear your thoughts!!Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-2013690885245471562011-08-14T16:17:00.000-04:002011-08-14T16:17:35.540-04:00Today was a good day. After being straight out yesterday, today was a little better. Got to sleep in a little thanks to Miss Em doing the same. When I finally got motivated, we went and returned the carpet cleaner. Visited some of Dustin's customers who wanted to meet Emma, then back to Concord for grocery shopping.<br />
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I think I did really well at the grocery store. I bought a lot of the stuff that Katy and I talked about yesterday. But I think I am going to have to stop shopping at Wal-Mart. They didn't have a lot of the stuff she recommended. Either way I think I made out pretty well for the time being. After I got everything put away, I threw out all the stuff in the house that was unhealthy. Which surprisingly was only 1/2 a bag of chips that I think were left over from the last BBQ we had, some fat free sherbert that was way too old to be in the freezer any more and a couple of ice cream toppings.<br />
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So getting on with the day I am down .6 pounds from yesterday, which is a relief after being up so much yesterday. This morning I had a V8 Fruit Fusion and a strawberry yo-crunch yogurt. Lunch was a little late because we got tied up earlier in the day. So lunch was a whole wheat Arnold's sandwich round with red pepper hummus and 3 slices of chicken along with 10 whole grain wheat thins and some more hummus.<br />
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I was still kind of hungry because I had prolonged lunch for so long, but I held off to see if the food would "kick" in and hunger pains would stop. They did a little, but not enough so after cutting up all of Em's food for the week I had Cheddar Cheese stick (90 calories) and a 100 calories snack pack of cheezits.<br />
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Dinner is going to be a steak salad and I am going to try some of the new yogurt ranch dressing that Katy recommended. I will probably end up having a snack after dinner as well, although I dont know what yet.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-77809048292591755772011-08-13T20:32:00.000-04:002011-08-13T20:32:12.060-04:00Today didn't start off to hot which I half expected after the dinner I had last night. I am still super pissed about it. But I did it to myself. I am up 1.5 today and clearly not happy about it.<br />
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I had an appointment today with Katy at Hannaford, for a store tour. She also gave me so great snack ideas and told me she didn't think I was eating enough.....excuse me, come again, yeah not eating enough. Well OK then. We will try it your way and see how it goes.<br />
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I was pretty much on the run all day. The morning started off with a Simply blueberry granola bar and a DD french vanilla ice coffee with skim and splenda. Got home around 11ish after running multiple errands and immediately started cleaning the living room carpet. I had a snack around noon, which was a 100 calorie cheezit snack pack and rest of a coke zero that I had started earlier in the day.<br />
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I didn't get to lunch until about 2, which was a salad with Caesar dressing. Around 4ish I had a 100 calorie fruit crisp snack. Dinner was grilled chicken with herb and garlic seasoning, broccoli, rice and around 7:30 I had an apple with peanut butter.<br />
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So about the only thing I got right today as far as the eating goes is dinner and snacks. Tomorrow is a new day and I have to go grocery shopping so it is the perfect way to start off the new week.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-69499922187862440502011-08-12T19:44:00.000-04:002011-08-12T19:44:44.179-04:00DinnerI totally blew dinner out of the water, I had a chicken sub with lettuce, onion, feta, mayo and tomatoes.....I also had a small spicey fry. I know not healthy and I totally have remorse after eating it, but it was good. I am so an emotional eater and I need to work on that.<br />
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Enough said.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-53291845607327230672011-08-12T16:53:00.000-04:002011-08-12T16:53:31.004-04:00ughI am only down .2 this morning and I am seriously disappointed in myself. I didnt stray from dinner last night, the only thing that was different was one piece of pizza and salad instead of two pieces of pizza. I am not really sure what else to say except that I am super irritated.<br />
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Had a V8 Fruit Fusion with my pills this morning. Breakfast is going to be ice tea with Yo-crunch strawberry yogurt. I managed no snack in the morning. I was really hungry. Lunch was a Cafe Steamer, surprise, surprise. Chicken something or other. Had a 100 calorie chocolate chip snack pack and a granny smith apple for an afternoon snack.<br />
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I took out chicken for dinner and will probably have that on top of salad versus having to cook something additional for veggies and a starch.<br />
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I am super pissy and that is alll I have to say today!Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-53315343151760636662011-08-11T14:54:00.000-04:002011-08-11T14:54:46.002-04:00Nothing catchy to say!!!!!I really hate feeling like I have to come up with catchy blog names everyday. It really sucks. I think I am going to be a loser and just start dating them.<br />
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I am so bored at work, we are so slow.........my work was done by 11 and the phone has been quiet. So I have been trying to twiddle my thumbs productively. I skimmed three of my parents magazines. Googled some stuff...and that is it. Now it is 2:55 I have two hours left and I am writing the blog that will take maybe 10 mins if I am quick about it not even that much time. I am thankful I am still employed. When we are busy I cant even think about checking my email, because there is just no time in the day. I actually really don't like it when it is like this, it is very boring and unproductive.<br />
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Anyways, this morning I had a fruit fusion with my pills and a blueberry yogurt and raspberry ice tea when I got to work. Around 11:00 I had a Kellog's fruit crisp, which I think are really good. But I have an abnormal liking of artificial fruit flavors.<br />
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Lunch was a lemon chicken cafe steamer. Yum, Yum and I just had a 100 calorie chocolate chip snack pack. I think I am going to have left over pizza for dinner. I didnt take anything out and I am feeling kind of lazy.....that happens to me when there isn't a ton to do at work, it seems to follow me home.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5196687933155173449.post-20577174973433460942011-08-11T07:29:00.000-04:002011-08-11T07:29:21.741-04:00Dinner - as expectedThis is a double post, kinda for those of you that didn't read it under the FB post last night. Dinner went well, we did order pizza. The outlaws got what they wanted and Dustin and I stuck to a healthy pizza. Onion, pepper, broccoli, spinach, eggplant and mushroom. I did good and only had two pieces and was totally full although it was so yummy that I totally wanted to annihilate another piece.<br />
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Was nervous about getting on the scale because of how full I was last night. And as I was stepping on it was doing a little chant of please go down, please go down, please go down. It worked. I was down .4 this morning.<br />
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I have been debating about writing about this, but I am putting everything else out there, so this is nothing different. I have been so irregular after making this change in how and what I am eating. It seems on the days that I am not able to go I am only down .4 or .6 etc....but the days I am going I am down much more than that. So I started taking a probiotic last night. I hope that it works. I was recommended to get the Align brand, went to the store yesterday at lunch to get some it was like $35 for 30 pills. FUCK THAT. I got the store brand for $15, checked the ingredients and all the main ingredients are exactly the same. <br />
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I'll check in later with my normal daily post.Sarahhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11408260049497872297noreply@blogger.com0